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Why I Should Move to a Different Country But Lack the Motivation to Do so and Studying for the LSATs
If I wasn't so used to the way of life in America, I would have considered moving away from this country more seriously, especially with a bleak future I see in this country. While I'm pessimistic about the U.S., it doesn't mean that I hold this view for the rest of the world. With all biases aside, like many around the world do believe that China will emerge as one of the dominant forces in the world. However, even so, after growing up and visiting there during the summer almost every summer, I don't know how I will become used to the environment.
My initial instinct concludes that the little things in the country bother me the most. Speaking from experience, this is only Beijing. Some of them are:
1. Air Quality - No blue skies except after a storm, even then it only lasts 3-4 days. Number of cars make pollution a horrible problem. Makes the air in L.A. seem like Godsend.
2. Summer Heat - I'm usually not particular about weather but the heat during the summer is unbearable at times. Somehow the soot in the air makes things even worse as walking anywhere when its over 100 degrees F is something of a struggle which brings me to my next point...
3. The Mosquitoes - Once I counted over 25 bites over my body due to mosquitoes during the summer. The humidity during the summer is too perfect for these things to roam around.
Off the top of my head, that's about it for now. Its always the trivial and minute details that seem to matter the most. Of course there's also the problem with me getting a job there, meeting new friends etc. But on the bright side, the variety of food there is so much better than the ones in America, this is the almighty qualifier.
Other than just bumming around, I've made a plan to study for the LSATs and to take the test in September. Taking a couple practice tests has made me realize that 1. My logic sucks, 2. Attention to detail on this test is insane (nuances of word will be debated), 3. I have really bad ADD (which I knew but didn't deter me that much in college). I'm hoping to score a 170 and if I do see if I can get in a T14 school. So I'm trying to study as much as possible to get over this hump / aiming for 7-8 hours a day. I never saw myself going to Law but I'm trying not to think too far ahead, just far enough to take the test.
I was running on such a high last summer because I was working like crazy and had so much to look forward to. But recently, I've lost a lot of confidence in myself. I constantly question myself and I see that I'm not so much lacking the motivation to rebound but the energy to start again. I remember I used to have hobbies but now the fatigue from this past school year has just run its course through every part of my body. I've embraced the phrase expect the worse and hope for the best but somehow it has become a crutch instead of a basis for optimism. Another rejection this week just sunk my hope a little more. Damn it, I just want some motivation to go somewhere else and do something fresh and new.
My initial instinct concludes that the little things in the country bother me the most. Speaking from experience, this is only Beijing. Some of them are:
1. Air Quality - No blue skies except after a storm, even then it only lasts 3-4 days. Number of cars make pollution a horrible problem. Makes the air in L.A. seem like Godsend.
2. Summer Heat - I'm usually not particular about weather but the heat during the summer is unbearable at times. Somehow the soot in the air makes things even worse as walking anywhere when its over 100 degrees F is something of a struggle which brings me to my next point...
3. The Mosquitoes - Once I counted over 25 bites over my body due to mosquitoes during the summer. The humidity during the summer is too perfect for these things to roam around.
Off the top of my head, that's about it for now. Its always the trivial and minute details that seem to matter the most. Of course there's also the problem with me getting a job there, meeting new friends etc. But on the bright side, the variety of food there is so much better than the ones in America, this is the almighty qualifier.
Other than just bumming around, I've made a plan to study for the LSATs and to take the test in September. Taking a couple practice tests has made me realize that 1. My logic sucks, 2. Attention to detail on this test is insane (nuances of word will be debated), 3. I have really bad ADD (which I knew but didn't deter me that much in college). I'm hoping to score a 170 and if I do see if I can get in a T14 school. So I'm trying to study as much as possible to get over this hump / aiming for 7-8 hours a day. I never saw myself going to Law but I'm trying not to think too far ahead, just far enough to take the test.
I was running on such a high last summer because I was working like crazy and had so much to look forward to. But recently, I've lost a lot of confidence in myself. I constantly question myself and I see that I'm not so much lacking the motivation to rebound but the energy to start again. I remember I used to have hobbies but now the fatigue from this past school year has just run its course through every part of my body. I've embraced the phrase expect the worse and hope for the best but somehow it has become a crutch instead of a basis for optimism. Another rejection this week just sunk my hope a little more. Damn it, I just want some motivation to go somewhere else and do something fresh and new.
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